Take a chance and say yes….

Sometimes in life you just have to take a chance. You need to not think, just do it. You need to live in and enjoy the moment. You can’t over think it, just enjoy. Don’t worry about tomorrow, next week, next month, etc., just enjoy today. Take one day at a time and in time see what happens. You need to take that walk, go to that dinner and just enjoy the moment you are in. I am good at telling others to live in the moment, as life is to short, but can’t always take my own advice. So take that walk along the ocean, enjoy the company, the smell of the ocean and sound of the waves. Go to dinner, enjoy the food, the company, laugh and eat to much.

Sometimes we need to do things that are outside our comfort zone. In life you never know what will happen unless you take a chance. So go ahead and say yes to something and see what happens. You may be pleasantly surprised or you may not, but unless you say yes, you will never know.

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What would you do if it was your last day….

Did or do you have that one person, no matter what, they get your juices flowing, can turn your frown upside down and their smile, their voice, their laugh, a simple conversation, a text, etc., as you have such an amazing sexual, physical, friendship connection, that no matter what they do it turns you on. It’s something you can’t explain. I think this is rare and most people I have talked to, say there was or is one person that all around does it for them. Some aren’t with that person, never were with them and some married that person. Sometimes it’s not their looks, it’s the way they have about them, their personality, just something or everything about them that just turns you on, as you feel such a connection to them. They are the first person you think of when you have news, something great happens, something sad or upsetting happens, etc, as you just want to share with them, you know they will make a good thing even better and a sad thing hurt less. You know they understand, will be there, emotionally, even if they can’t physically. If you are lucky enough to find that person, hold on to them, even if it’s just a friend, as we all need someone we can count on.

Tonight I did one of those silly things on Facebook and it said that I need my children. That everything I do is to leave a good legacy for my children. They are the reason I never give up, even sometimes when it’s difficult. That I fight like a lioness, for my children’s happiness. This is so very true, but I also fight and never give up on those I love. I want the ones I love to also have happiness! Everyone deserves happiness! If you truly love someone you want them happy no matter what!

I had a professor who said “do everything as if it’s the last time you will do it” So when you are afraid to do something, not sure if you should do something, think what you would do if it was your last day on this earth. You will then have your answer to most questions, situations or dilemmas you face.

Breadcrumbs……

First if you don’t know what this means it means when we send flirtatious, yet non-committal messages or set very general plans, but never following through.

For these people dating may not be a priority, they don’t want to hurt your feelings, they want a quick ego boost, they are feeling guilty, they miss you, to keep in touch without seeing you, they are lonely, they don’t want to completely lose you, they are just looking for a booty call, they are scared to commit and some don’t even realize they are doing it.

When this happens it gives the person they are sending the breadcrumbs to, a false sense of hope. It makes them think maybe they are truly interested in some sort of relationship with them. I myself was guilty of this, as they filled a void for me, at the time. I realized this wasn’t fair to the person I was bread-crumbing, so now I cut them off and block them so I’m not tempted to breadcrumb them.

This leads me to the question, do we allow ourselves to be breadcrumbed, as we are hopeful they will realize what an amazing person we are and how there is no one out there like us, so we hold on. Is this healthy? Is this fantasy and not reality? Does it ruin how we see others we meet? It usually is that person we can’t seem to say good bye to, we can’t imagine them not being in our life, yet wonder if them being in our life is clouding and ruining our judgement and feelings of others. I have talked to several people and some cut the person out, admitted it was hard to do and they miss them, but as time went on missed them less and less and found someone to make them happy. They admitted they think about them and wonder what they didn’t have that the other person wanted, that they didn’t want them.

Life is not a dress rehearsal, but sometimes we act out the same scene over and over, as we hope to land the part, yet over and over we are told we aren’t right for the part. Do we give up, try a new scene, land a different part? Or do we hang in there and hope that some day we land our dream part?

Some follow their dreams and never give up, others give it a try and after a while go in a new direction.

Valentines Day….

Most of this is from last year with some changes, as I liked it. As this year I have a Valentine I guess you would say…I could careless if I went out tonight, as I feel things are over priced and not as good, as they try for volume. I will go enjoy and treat it like any other date. Hope everyone enjoys their day…

I have to say I was never a real big fan of Valentine’s Day. I have always felt it seemed silly that people needed a holiday, to make them tell and show people they love and care about, how they felt. The people in my life, shouldn’t need a holiday to tell and show me how they feel. I feel every day we should show and tell the people in our lives, how special they are. I’m not saying I want gifts and flowers every day. I feel there are many ways in which we can show and tell people just how special they are to us, without flowers and gifts. My kids one year ask me what I wanted and I told them, I would love it if you would clean my car. They thought I was kidding, but I wasn’t. I feel doing something for someone, making something, giving them a hug, taking a walk with them or sending them a simple text to tell them how special they are, is the most priceless gift you can give someone. I want to be surprised with flowers for no reason. A romantic dinner for no reason. A weekend away just the two of us. A night in, cuddled on the couch, watching a movie. I am a person that enjoys and appreciates the simple things in life. I feel the most precious and priceless things, aren’t things and cost little or no money. The most precious of all things someone can give, is their time. I feel anyone can spend a lot of money and put no effort or thought into a gift. The most precious gifts I have received were homemade and/or with a lot of work and thought put into them. One of the best gifts I received from my children, was a basket full of me things. It was all my favorite things I liked to do, gift cards for a manicure/pedicure, a massage, Starbucks and my favorite shower gel and lotion from Bath and Body Works. This year for Christmas my favorite gift was a mug the says “I Love You To The Moon And Back” from my kids, as I say that to them all the time. Another was a friend took me to dinner and dancing to celebrate my 50th birthday. It was a night of great conversation, company and laughs. I ate more than I should, danced more than I should and stayed out later than I should, but enjoyed myself and had fun. All of these were such sweet and thoughtful gifts. So everyone needs to show the special people in their lives, how special they are, not just because a holiday tells us to, but because we want too!

I have lost too many people in my life, way too soon and unexpectedly. Sometimes we don’t have as much time with the people closest to us, as we thought or would have wanted. Remember no tomorrow is guaranteed!  

Why can’t everyone be up front and honest???

When getting divorced you sometimes realize or discover how much debt you really are in. I myself had a very eye opening experience, as to how much debt I really was in, when I started my divorce process. I also discovered how financially irresponsible, sneaky and dishonest my x was. He felt if you avoid a problem, it will just go away, when in reality, it makes it worse and in some cases, causes you even more debt.

I worked an average of 30 hours at a part time job in addition to my full time job. I don’t make a lot of money, but I’m a very budgeted person. I feel I am so much richer in family, friends, honesty and heart.

I have met man that when the check came, they claimed to just have discovered that they forgot or lost their wallet. Some the day of our date would text me they lost their wallet or their account was frozen, as someone hacked their account. Can these things happen, yes, but in most of these cases, I doubt it. I met a guy who explained he was laid off his job, started his own business and money was very tight for him. I had more respect for him, then someone making up a story, OK lying. I have met guys renting a room, who have moved back with their parents, moved in with his sibling or friends, as these men did not want to over extend their budget. I have more respect for them, for first being honest and second for being financially responsible. Some men are paying, alimony, child support and/or part of the household expenses that their children live in. I am an understanding woman, but come out and be honest from the beginning about your finances. If a woman will only be with you because of the size of your bank account, move on. I can tell you what is important is how a man treats me, if we have a physical, emotional connection and if I can have an intelligent conversation with him. If all you are looking for is sex, be honest, as I am sure there are some women out there that is all they are looking for, also. Everyone is entitled to what they like and want. I have had men say to me, do you know how long it has been since I had sex, I want it, I need it. My answer is well get to know me and in time if we connect that may happen, but don’t push the issue, as for me that’s a big turn off and if will be even longer before you have sex again.

Is it nice to have a man, be a gentleman, take you to dinner and treat, yes. We are in 2018, so I feel yes, in the beginning a gentleman should pay, but as time goes on, the relationship progresses, then maybe he pays for dinner and I pay for the movie or he treats one time and you treat another. I love to cook, so when we get to that point, then I would enjoy cooking for a man, especially if he cooks with me or even better yet, he cleans up 🙂

Just be honest, as I can’t speak for others, but for me that’s all I want and will have so much more respect for an honest man. These men, I feel, think we are stupid and are going to fall for their lines. I will admit, when I was first dating after my divorce I did, but live and learn!

Where are you and what are you doing?

In today’s world of technology we are always in constant touch. In today’s world of dating, relationship, etc., we can be in touch all the time. We are constantly being ask where we are, what we are doing and who are we with. We can say we are anywhere from still at work to out with friends or home, but how do they know that is where we really are, how do we know people are where they tell us they are. People can say they are in the comfort of their home relaxing, when they are out partying, or in a hotel room with someone. No matter what we say or where we say we are or who we say we are with, the person on the other end will have no choice but to believe us.

Is technology making things easier or more complicated? Do we really need to be in such constant touch with people? Some say technology has ruined us and relationships? Would love feedback on this and your thoughts……

Meeting NOT a date…..

Ok went on a meeting last night, yes I call them meetings not dates. It lasted 45 minutes and here is why….He doesn’t have a job, isn’t looking for a job, has to sell his house and going to buy a camper van and go from friend to friends driveway, has to quit drinking, diabetic and sugar out of control, has sued every employer he has ever worked for, that’s what he lives off, was just circumcised in October, can take a lot of pain, etc….People ask me why I will not meet for dinner the first time, this was 45 minutes, I couldn’t imagine sitting through dinner. It gets better, he insists on walking me to my car, I was nice I hugged him, thanked him for the coffee and he attacked my neck, I pushed him away and he went in for a full open mouth kiss. In what world did this guy think that this “meeting” went well???

I have decided I need to come up with a list of questions before I even meet a guy….here is my list….

1. Are you divorced and can you supply the JOD if needed?

2. Do you have a drivers license?

3. Do you own a car? Is that car in your possession?

4. Do you have your own place? Sleep on a friends couch? Sleep in your car or a van?

5. Do you do drugs?

6. Do you smoke pot?

7. Do you have a drinking problem?

8. What is your religion? Can you date and be in a relationship, other than with God in your religion?

9. Are you any kind of relationship with another?

10. Do you like animals? Are you allergic to dogs?

ME:

1. Yes

2. Yes

3. Yes and yes

4. Yes – No – No

5. No

6. No

7. No

8. Catholic and Yes

9. No

10. Yes love them and no