I have taken a break from posting and have been focusing on me and my book writing….I have vowed that this is the year I will finish at least one of my books I have started and I have been writing away and so excited, as I am limitless….sorry for the lack of posts but creative juices have been flowing and have to finish what I started….
Taking a break for a bit…Hope everyone has a happy, healthy New Year filled with amazing people and things, health happiness and love!!!
Christmas Eve we went to see “It’s a Wonderful Life” in the movie theater. As the angel shows George what life for others, would have been like, if he never was born. I wondered how my life would have been different, if I hadn’t met certain people in my life. I wondered how their lives would have been different. I wondered how my life would have been, if I went through with calling off my engagement and never getting married. I wondered if I would have married someday, someone else or if I would have had children. I can’t imagine not having my two children, not being in my life. I also, can’t imagine myself, if I hadn’t met the people that I have. Even if these people are no longer in my life, they came into my life for a reason. Some changed me, taught me something, inspired me in some way and/or blessed me. I would also like to think that I also affected their lives in some way.
One friend would always call the men I have met my flock. Yes I have gone on a lot of first dates, maybe some second, even some third ones and sometimes several with the same guy. I can’t say I regret one of them, as each and everyone of them, helped me to figure out the kind of person I wanted in my life and the ones that I don’t. Like the saying goes “you have to kiss a lot of frogs”. Well I haven’t kissed a lot, but I have talk to, hugged and even ran from some lol. Dating or going on meetings, as I call them, online dating, may not be for everyone. Some feel going on a bunch of dates or meetings, isn’t for them or they just don’t have the time for it. Others don’t like change, stay in a marriage, relationship or situation, as they are afraid of change, the unknown or being alone. I stayed in my marriage way longer than I should have and also, have sometimes gone on way more dates than I should have, with the same person. I have also talk text or met guys, I didn’t feel were necessarily for me, but gave them a chance. I have had guys that I didn’t feel that romantic connection with, but became friends with. Some I communicated for awhile and others I couldn’t wait to run away from lol.
I feel people and lives mold who we are, teach us and make us the person we are today or will become. Some change us for the better and others, not so much. We need to remember everyone we meet or that comes into our lives, does so for a reason or lesson. They teach us something, sometimes positive and sometimes negative.
So thank the people that have touch you, molded you, taught you about who you want to be, taught you the kind of things you are willing and not willing to accept, that inspired you or changed you in some way.
So many people have told me that I need to write a book and I have started and stopped, started and stopped one, last night I wrote and wrote….I hope by the end of 2018 to have it published……look for it….
They left the room and headed down to the bar. When they got to the bar they talked, laughed and even for a moment stared into each other’s eyes. After a few drinks they headed to the restaurant. When they arrived their table wasn’t ready yet. He suggested a glass of wine while they waited. Once their table was ready they walked to their table, as always he had her sit first, as he was a true gentleman. Once she sat down, he sat right next to her. They started with an appetizer, he had suggested, as he had eaten there before, but she hadn’t. They talked and laughed some more. He seemed nervous, at first. He explained to her that she was the only person he had every reached out to and met, from online. He told her why he had, then laid his hand on her back, gently rubbed it up and down her back. When the waiter came to take their dinner order, they weren’t ready, as they were talking and hadn’t yet looked at the menu. He finally said to her that the waiter was staring at them, that they should look at the menus and decide what to order. He suggested two different dishes that they could share and she agreed. He waved the waiter over, ordered for both of them. The waiter suggested a wine, he agreed, then the waiter showed him the price and he said “that’s fine she’s worth every penny and nothing is to good for her”.
They chatted, ate, enjoyed the wine, him feeding her and her feeding him. He then excused himself and headed to the men’s room. She felt like a princess, as he was treating her like she was one. She had always imaged a date with him, but it was beyond anything she had ever imaged. He returned from the men’s room and she then said to him “it’s my turn, I’ll be right back”. She headed to the ladies room. When she entered the ladies room this young girl smiled and said “can I ask, are you on a first date?” Cecilia smiled and said “no we have been friends for a long time and we maybe crossing the friendship line tonight”. She said “can I tell you, my boyfriend and I are sitting across from the two of you, have been watching you two and even my boyfriend said the way he looks at you, he is so into you and he so wants you”. Cecilia was shocked by what this girl was saying, as she had several glasses of wine and wasn’t sure she heard her right. She said to her, “what? Really?” And the young girl told Cecilia “listen girl, he is so into you, I think the whole restaurant can see that!”. She washed her hands, left the bathroom and headed back to the table. As she was walking back to the table, the young girl and her boyfriend gave her a wink and a thumbs up.
She sat back down at the table, he began to talk to her, yet she couldn’t hear what he was saying, as a combination of too much wine and what the young girl in the bathroom told her, had her looking at him in a different way. She wanted him, she has always wanted him, but she so wanted to say to him right there to take her back to the room, but the words couldn’t come out of her mouth. The bill came, he paid it and said to her “let’s get out of here and go for a walk”.
They left the restaurant and went for a walk, talked and laughed some more. They passed the bar where the band was playing and he turn to her and said “let’s dance”. They ordered a couple of drinks and then took to the dance floor. He was amazed how good she could dance. He leaned into her and whispered in her ear “if you move half as good in the bedroom, as you do on the dance floor, you just may give me a heart attack tonight”. She smiled, leaned into him and whispered in his ear “you have no idea what pleasure you are in for”. As she backed away she could see he was already aroused. They danced and drank for about an hour. He then leaned over and said “are you ready to go upstairs?” She downed her drink and said “absolutely!”.
They headed to the elevator, he pushed the button, the doors opened, they got in, he pressed their floor and the doors closed.
Some times we just need to move on and tonight I did. I met the hopeful and potential Mr. Incredible. We had a great dinner and conversation. He stimulated my mind and body. I love someone that I can have an intelligent conversation with, can make me laugh, I enjoy their company and of course stimulates my body. He is someone I have seen several times before, but didn’t give much thought to him, as I was spending time with Mr. Amazing. When dinner was over, he walked me to my car. On the way to the car he stopped, placed his hand on my neck behind my hair, looked into my eyes, thanked me for a great night, then gave me a sweet and gentle kiss. And then we continued on to my car. When we got to my car he gave me a hug, this time gave me a passionate kiss. I invited him to sit in my car. He smiled and said “I would love to, but I am going to be a gentleman and decline” he then asked if I had plans for the weekend. I told him I didn’t, except for Sunday. He then asked if I wanted to join him in AC Friday night. He said he wanted to make a reservation at a nice restaurant and make it a special evening for the first time we would spent the night together. I smiled and accepted. He said he will pick me up early Friday morning, so we can stop at Smithville, walk around in the shops and have a nice lunch before heading to AC to check into the hotel. He then kissed me goodbye and told me to text him when I got home.
When I arrived home I text him that I had arrived home safe and sound. He thanked me again for a great evening and said he looked forward to spending Friday with me. I have to say I’m a little nervous, as I am use to amazing sex and so hoping I will not be disappointed. I don’t think I will, as we have had conversation and he seems to be very creative and pleasing in the bedroom. I will be packing my bag of toys and try out my surprise seduction.
Stay tuned to see if he is Mr. Incredible. I think he has great potential to take on the title.
I would love for you to contact me!!! Don’t be a coward go ahead contact me ask me anything and I will tell you the truth!!! Read carefully!!!! You are pathetic!!! I am done as I will no longer sensor my posts!!! Move on or accept it!!! How about not reading my blog!!! And thanks for the compliment that your life is so pathetic that you have to stalk me! I can’t help it if you can’t make someone happy!!! Move on or accept the way things are!!! Watch for Mr. Incredible ;)))))