Christmas Eve we went to see “It’s a Wonderful Life” in the movie theater. As the angel shows George what life for others, would have been like, if he never was born. I wondered how my life would have been different, if I hadn’t met certain people in my life. I wondered how their lives would have been different. I wondered how my life would have been, if I went through with calling off my engagement and never getting married. I wondered if I would have married someday, someone else or if I would have had children. I can’t imagine not having my two children, not being in my life. I also, can’t imagine myself, if I hadn’t met the people that I have. Even if these people are no longer in my life, they came into my life for a reason. Some changed me, taught me something, inspired me in some way and/or blessed me. I would also like to think that I also affected their lives in some way.
One friend would always call the men I have met my flock. Yes I have gone on a lot of first dates, maybe some second, even some third ones and sometimes several with the same guy. I can’t say I regret one of them, as each and everyone of them, helped me to figure out the kind of person I wanted in my life and the ones that I don’t. Like the saying goes “you have to kiss a lot of frogs”. Well I haven’t kissed a lot, but I have talk to, hugged and even ran from some lol. Dating or going on meetings, as I call them, online dating, may not be for everyone. Some feel going on a bunch of dates or meetings, isn’t for them or they just don’t have the time for it. Others don’t like change, stay in a marriage, relationship or situation, as they are afraid of change, the unknown or being alone. I stayed in my marriage way longer than I should have and also, have sometimes gone on way more dates than I should have, with the same person. I have also talk text or met guys, I didn’t feel were necessarily for me, but gave them a chance. I have had guys that I didn’t feel that romantic connection with, but became friends with. Some I communicated for awhile and others I couldn’t wait to run away from lol.
I feel people and lives mold who we are, teach us and make us the person we are today or will become. Some change us for the better and others, not so much. We need to remember everyone we meet or that comes into our lives, does so for a reason or lesson. They teach us something, sometimes positive and sometimes negative.
So thank the people that have touch you, molded you, taught you about who you want to be, taught you the kind of things you are willing and not willing to accept, that inspired you or changed you in some way.