Cecilia’s Secret Side….

I have taken a break from posting and have been focusing on me and my book writing….I have vowed that this is the year I will finish at least one of my books I have started and I have been writing away and so excited, as I am limitless….sorry for the lack of posts but creative juices have been flowing and have to finish what I started….


AMAZING 2018!!!

Taking a break for a bit…Hope everyone has a happy, healthy New Year filled with amazing people and things, health happiness and love!!!

Everyone touches and teaches us in some way…

Christmas Eve we went to see “It’s a Wonderful Life” in the movie theater. As the angel shows George what life for others, would have been like, if he never was born. I wondered how my life would have been different, if I hadn’t met certain people in my life. I wondered how their lives would have been different. I wondered how my life would have been, if I went through with calling off my engagement and never getting married. I wondered if I would have married someday, someone else or if I would have had children. I can’t imagine not having my two children, not being in my life. I also, can’t imagine myself, if I hadn’t met the people that I have. Even if these people are no longer in my life, they came into my life for a reason. Some changed me, taught me something, inspired me in some way and/or blessed me. I would also like to think that I also affected their lives in some way.

One friend would always call the men I have met my flock. Yes I have gone on a lot of first dates, maybe some second, even some third ones and sometimes several with the same guy. I can’t say I regret one of them, as each and everyone of them, helped me to figure out the kind of person I wanted in my life and the ones that I don’t. Like the saying goes “you have to kiss a lot of frogs”. Well I haven’t kissed a lot, but I have talk to, hugged and even ran from some lol. Dating or going on meetings, as I call them, online dating, may not be for everyone. Some feel going on a bunch of dates or meetings, isn’t for them or they just don’t have the time for it. Others don’t like change, stay in a marriage, relationship or situation, as they are afraid of change, the unknown or being alone. I stayed in my marriage way longer than I should have and also, have sometimes gone on way more dates than I should have, with the same person. I have also talk text or met guys, I didn’t feel were necessarily for me, but gave them a chance. I have had guys that I didn’t feel that romantic connection with, but became friends with. Some I communicated for awhile and others I couldn’t wait to run away from lol.

I feel people and lives mold who we are, teach us and make us the person we are today or will become. Some change us for the better and others, not so much. We need to remember everyone we meet or that comes into our lives, does so for a reason or lesson. They teach us something, sometimes positive and sometimes negative.

So thank the people that have touch you, molded you, taught you about who you want to be, taught you the kind of things you are willing and not willing to accept, that inspired you or changed you in some way.

The Book

So many people have told me that I need to write a book and I have started and stopped, started and stopped one, last night I wrote and wrote….I hope by the end of 2018 to have it published……look for it….

Reflecting on the past year…

As Christmas approaches and the year comes to an end, I reflect back on the past year. I am so thankful for my children, they drive me crazy at times, but make me so proud every single day, to be their mother! I have family and friends that we have had our ups and downs, but through it all they are there for me and I am there for them. I have said good bye to some and some have said good bye to me, this year. I truly believe everyone comes into our lives for a reason, so whether they are still in my life or have walked away, I am still thankful for every single one of them. Some good byes break your heart, but sometimes it’s better to say good bye and move on. Some good byes you didn’t want, but for some reason they did. The holidays are tough, especially when you are alone. I am a very independent person, but do like having that special friend. I love my kids with all my heart, but as they get older, are molding their own lives, I am grateful for my friends and family, but also enjoy my alone time. I am hoping this year brings all my family, friends, but most of all, my children, health, happiness and great things. I will be receiving the most precious gift of all in 2018, my first grandchild, a little baby girl. I pray she will be healthy and happy always.

I wish everyone a great Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanza or whatever holiday you celebrate. Also a Happy and Healthy New Year!!!!

I wish….

Sometimes we wish we could take back words but once they are out we can’t….I enjoyed last week and now it seems the words were to much….

I wish I could go back in time

Before I shared what was on my mind

A time when you and I could talk and text

A time when as friends we were the best

I miss the way things were

I miss you my friend again sir

Maybe in the new year

We again can share

Forget the past between me and you

Start as friends fresh and new

© 2017 Teri Fitzgerald

Online dating….

Well I’m hitting the online dating sites again. I don’t know how I feel about a football or hockey game for a first date. I love sports and nothing beats a live game, but if the first date doesn’t go well, then you are with them for the several hours and the ride home could be horrible. The other option is dinner and a play in NYC, again great first date if you hit it off, but if you don’t then you are locked into several hours with this person. The up side is during the play you don’t have to talk. I very much prefer to meet for coffee and see if there is a connection first, but if their schedule doesn’t allow that, then do you go ahead and commit to a sporting event or night in the city or decline all together. Part of me says go ahead it’s a night out and make the best of it even if you don’t have a connection and part of me says wait until they have time for coffee. How I don’t like the online dating thing. Any thoughts anyone would like to share?