We realize….

When we realize something will never be

We sometimes dream something only we can see

We imagine it will pass in time

We soon realize it was only in our mind

We realize what was will never happen again

We realize all we are is a friend

We are sad for the loss of something that wasn’t ours

For what we had we thank our lucky stars

We may not understand the choice that was made

We may even feel we were a little played

We accepted it will never be any more

We feel all wasn’t fair in love and this war

We know we were the best

We know they settled for less

We move on and get what we want and deserve

We tuck the memories away and them we preserve

We pray they are happy with their choice

We hope some day with happiness they will rejoice

We care so much happiness for them is all we want to see

We know it is what it is and what is meant to be will be

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My time…

My kids will always come first, but with my daughter back at college and my son living with his girlfriend, it’s time for me to get out, have fun, enjoy life and have a life.

This past weekend I had a time with my kids, Friday for dinner, before my daughter went to say her good byes to her friends. I accepted an invitation to get out and have some fun Friday night. Saturday morning I got up early and took my daughter back to college. We unpacked the car, moved her stuff into her suite, cleaned and went for a late lunch. I said good bye to her and her friends and drove home. I shower and changed, after I got home and headed to a party. I enjoyed so many laughs and had a great time. I didn’t arrive home until 2:30am. I slept in Sunday, did some laundry and then accepted an invitation to drive down the shore.

I have said many times, money plays a part in today’s dating world, as most, but not all men, want a woman who has enough money to support herself and pay her own way. I am truly lucky enough to have someone, who is a true old fashion gentleman and doesn’t believe in letting a woman paying, whether it’s a date or just a friend.

Tonight, a work night, I went out and enjoyed dinner with a friend I hadn’t seen in a few years. We laughed, shared stories and had a great time. I stayed out a bit late for a work night, but with an empty nest, I’m getting out and enjoying myself.

I miss my daughter, but I know she is having a great time at college. I miss my son, but I am proud of the man he has become. Life is too short, so be with someone and around people that make you happy, live life, do what makes you happy and just enjoy it!

Someone….

You talk chat and make a connection

You are looking for much in common especially affection

We all try from our hearts to have projection

We all have fear of meeting in person and rejection

We all want to meet and connect with someone new

Someone that is so amazing they make us happy not blue

Meeting someone new is scary, sweet and a great feeling

Your heart is what you hope they will be stealing

You hope to find someone to laugh, cry and share special times

Someone to walk, share and dine

Someone to share in your up and downs in life’s climb

Someone who is your partner in crime

Someone to share hugs and passionate kissing

Someone when apart, each other you are missing

Someone who’s flaws you find so endearing

Someone through life you want to be sharing

Someone….

You talk chat and make a connection

You are looking for much in common especially affection

We all try from our hearts to have projection

We all have fear of meeting in person and rejection

We all want to meet and connect with someone new

Someone that is so amazing they make us happy not blue

Meeting someone new is scary, sweet and a great feeling

Your heart is what you hope they will be stealing

You hope to find someone to laugh, cry and share special times

Someone to walk, share and dine

Someone to share in your up and downs in life’s climb

Someone who is your partner in crime

Someone to share hugs and passionate kissing

Someone when apart, each other you are missing

Someone who’s flaws you find so endearing

Someone through life you want to be sharing

What all the others taught you….

When you meet someone that makes you realize why all the others weren’t the right one. It makes you realize how someone who truly cares for you should and will treat you. You realize how you deserve to be treated. You realize how someone who truly wants to be with you, will find the time for you. It makes you realize the others weren’t a mistake, they were a lesson. They made you realize who and what you want, but more importantly, who and what you deserve. Each and everyone of them made you the person you are today. You owe them a thank you, as they taught you to not settle, to not be afraid to say what you want and be who you truly are. They made you realize you deserve happiness. They brought out sides of you that maybe you didn’t know existed or were afraid to show the world. They say everyone comes into your life for a reason and I truly believe they do.

One guy taught me to not judge a book by its cover. He was a sweetheart of a guy, a true gentleman, so he seemed. He did and said all the right things, well all the things he knew a woman wanted to hear. I did notice very small red flags, but thought I was just being negative. I then was directed to a site called CheaterLand. There was many women telling stories of being used and scammed by this guy, of course along with many other cheating men and woman. I didn’t want to believe it at first. I went to his “live in” girlfriend’s Facebook page, mentioned on the cheating site. There the two of them were, picture after picture of the two of them, not just recently, but for several years. This was a big lesson in never judge a book by its cover. Even though I felt like a fool, it didn’t discourage me. I realized when it’s the right person, you know in your gut and will have no doubts in your mind.

Find a way and the time…

When it’s late, you can’t sleep and all of a sudden your phone goes off. You look and it’s someone you hadn’t talk to or even thought about in a while. They text and ask how you are doing. You wonder to yourself, how did they know at that moment you needed someone to talk to. You start to chat, before you know it some time has gone by, you aren’t feeling so down and you become tired. You say good night. After you do, you wonder to yourself, how is it they always know when you need an ear to listen, some positive words and just someone on the other end of the phone to say, it’s going to be ok. They seem to have some kind of weird connection with you, as they always seem to reach out just when you need it. It makes you wonder, why aren’t they that someone special, why don’t you see them more and why aren’t you in some sort of relationship. As you are so tired and ready to drift off to sleep, you make a mental note, to try and make all these things happen. So when you have someone like this, don’t let them go, figure out how to make it work.